Well.
I got into trouble.
I GUESS you can say that it was kinda big.

I'm pretty much grounded until further notice from my mom, a.k.a. Hitler. lol. Just plaaying. She's totally not like that, but if she grounds me for the entire summer, I will cry. It wasn't even that BAD. Well, kinda. But my friends did worst things and got off easy.

And y'know. It's the end of the school year. You act up. End of story.

Soooo yeaaaah.

I definitely like Joshy again. I was reading my past entries and just thinking, "God, I'm such a flip-flopper." lol. In one entry, I'm professing my love for him, in the next I'm like he's sucha player, I totally do not like him. lol.

I know he likes me on some level but he's got lots of chicky friends who are extremely pretty. And blond.

Which is the complete and total opposite of me.

Because I'm not that pretty, I'm decent-looking. If you locked me in a room with someone else, I wouldn't be HORRIBLE to look at. And I'm definitely not that bottle-blond, Hollister, flip-flop kinda gal.

I listen to rock for crying out loud. I eat religiously. My friends mean everything to me. When a guy sweet talks me, I laugh. I don't like to wear skirts or dresses. I always want what I can't have. I don't open up easily. I care about what other people think about me, human nature. I always try to hold my feelings inside. I'm not very touchy-feeling and 2 minutes into a relationship, I will not gush, "I love you." I'll say it when I mean it.

I am not the ideal girlfriend right there.

I don't even know if I should even LIKE Josh. I went on his MySpace and he was so much lady friends who he hangs out with all the time and there's .. me. Whenever I hang out with a guy, it's usually with his GIRLFRIEND or whatever. Whenever I talk to a guy on the phone, we're talking about the girl he likes. I'm the quintenssential best gal friend.

Sometimes I think I'm never going to get/find a guy. I mean ... I want that whole knight in shining armor deal but then I don't.

I always feel like I'm missing something when I walk down the halls and there's millions of couples pressed against the walls making out and I'm just walking along the halls, with no one attached to my side except maybe one of my friends. And her boyfriend.

I've never had a boyfriend. Those stupid ones don't count. Like the elementary school where people thought you still had cooties but you guys still were "dating" because it was the hip thing to do. And I don't even remember most of them.

And my first kiss with Tony in 2nd grade doesn't count because that was the cheek.

So ... IDK. I'm so lost and confused. I wish I had a boyfriend. Just because I do. My friends always tell me how great it is. Someone to love. Like whenever you walk past your crush in the hall and you get that tingly feeling but you're not sure if he likes you back. Well when you're dating, I'm pretty certain that you DO know he's liking you, so it just adds to those tingles which I pretty much LOVE to feel.

I just ... don't even know. If I do find a boy, I'll be sure to get on my eljay. and spill all the deets.

But I highly doubt it.

Oh well. :[

Well ... MySpace is deciding to be a man today.
It's won't let me log onto MySpace ...
Grr. I want to kick it's balls. And noow. lol.

But I pretty much love all of my friends right now.
Fate is smiling on me this year.
My friends will totally do anything for me
and I them.
It's a great relationship right thuurr! lol.

And I love boys.
Boys = LOVE.
Josh is awesome.
But he hasn't flirted with me at all today.
Just given me a lot of looks.
I can't quite decipher them.
But they're looks.
And the sophomore guy???
I don't know about him.
I saw him this morning and he was ADORABLE
as always.
But I probably won't have a chance with him.
I've never even spoken one word to him.

Ohh wells.
Gotsa go.
LATER.

"Friends are FOREVER
Boys are what the fuck ever."

Well I saw James this morning.
He could not be any sadder/pathetic.
No joke.
Sometimes I want to strangle him.
He's so desperate to be with me and whenever I look at him, I feel repulsion.
He looks at me with those lovey-dovey eyes with him
and I feel like puking.
It always happens to me.
Story of my life basically.
I like a guy, I'm over it, he starts liking me and asks me out
and I can't help but EW him.
Seriously.
Well, I saw my No Name crush today.
The yummy sophomore guy.
He's adorable.
I saw him smile.
It was the most prettiest thing I've ever seen.
Well, not really.
But it made me perk up a little.
And his voice sounds really nerdish, but so masculine.
Confusing, right?
Right.
But he's really cute.
And so deep.
Ohh, I so wish he was at least one of my friends.
He seems so hella cool to talk to.
I like updating LJ a lot now.
I get bored on the Internet a lot now
because MySpace is getting really boring ...
I can't wait until this weekend.
I'm hanging out with my bestie's.
Excluding Cheyanne.
Because she's busy roping a really cute guy dubbed FBB.
Don't ask.
Inside joke.
Complicated and long to explain.
I love one-liners.
How dramatic.
How cool.
How so Veronica Mars-ish.
Loves it!
Well my dad is being disliked right now.
He called me stupid a few hours ago.
And he was a kid about it.
Because he ran into his room and slammed the door.
I felt like scolding him, but whatever.
He's a loser. A bum.
A no-life.
Who can't do anything to make me happy.
He has to annoy me or his day won't be complete.
I would say I hate him.
But that is a really strong word ...
And Josh.
Josh NUMBER 2!!!
I lovers him!
Well, not really.
But today, he was trying to flirt with me.
And I was trying to, too.
I think he's cute.
Adorable.
You could totally get lost in those big brown eyes of his.
He's lovely. <3
Well gotsa go.
Love you?
Duhh.

"I agree.
Logan and Veronica = foreverness.
If you have season 1 and 2, I'm going to go sleepover at your house and watch it until I can't take it anymore! lol.
I haven't seen it in a while.
B.c. my satellite is out.
And one-liners?
Fucking awesome.
True that.
I'll see you in Sociology tomorrow.
Well I'm out.
<3"

this is the comment i wanted to leave Adrienne. But LJ is being stupid so I'm posting it here.
Hah. I'm cool. lol.
But anyways, MySpace is awesome. U can talk to Bricegasm there. Seriously.
Well gotta go.
<3
Julie

Still haven't got my student council letter. I'm not that worried about it, but it's like whatever now kinda. The laziness of summer has caught up to me. I really hope I join. Well, I gotta go. My brother only allowed me five minutes (to type in my LJ because I'm in his account)

Later.

Okay, I *thought* student council called me (because I didn't get the mail yesterday) but it was something about bus routes or whatever.

Okay, my hiccups are now like nonstop. I just can't stop hiccuping. And I'm not in a good mood even though my mom has bought me a bunch of new books.

Ugh, damn pop-ups.

Love, Peace and Happiness

Oops. Yesterday for my music thing I typed in GC "Let Go" when it's really "Hold On" After hearing this lyric over and over again, "Hold on if you feel like letting go!" I accidentally typed the wrong mistakes. Lesson learned, eh?

My mom bought me my favorite chips yesterday. It's those Kroger chips. I love them, I just don't know why. I used to LOVE Hot Cheetoes but now I like the Kroger's take on hot cheetoes. They're cheesy and sweet and I like them. Wow, this was a REALLY useless paragraph.

My brothers are cleaning and my sister is out with my dad teaching her how to drive. Wow, I keep updating the journal everyday. It'll probably change when I go back to school and teachers shower homework at us so yeah better not get used to this. lol. Nothing but weird shows and soap operas on. ::sigh::

I am so bored. Woke up early, turned on the TV and some MaxiGlide commercial was on for really straight, shiny hair. And I was like that's pretty cool. And it looks like it works.

I'm supposed to get a new internet before school starts so that's cool. I was just finished reading A's LJ and she was talking about her cellphone and I want a cellphone SO bad. But I don't know if my mom will get me one. I asked her one time and she began laughing (yeah like in TV) and was ilke "You'll get one when you're 16, like your sister." That blows a LOT!

Okay, I don't know if student council wants me or not. If they did, I would've gotten a letter by now and a phone call so it can confirm the meeting on June 21st. Which is like next week. On Tuesday. I think. I really want to join it. Student Council really seems like fun, y'know? Nice way to meet SOME people before school starts ...

Well, gotta go. Need to email some people.

Love, Peace and Happiness

Okay, I am REALLY awake right now. Right now I'm munching down on some chips and washing that down with some ice water. I know it's bad to eat before you go to sleep, but whatever. We can only do this again for the remainder of summer and then on christmas and spring vacation. Sucks.

My whole family (minus my dad who is AWOL) is watching the news in my mom's room except my sister. She's taking a shower now but I am in my room, door closed, music blasting from the stereo. I feel very rock right now. lol. Karla burned me a Green Day "American Idiot" CD. I loove it! I'm hoping to buy the next one soon, but God knows when that will be. True fan I am, eh? My older brother just walked in here, stared at the screen and asked me what I was doing then told me to look at the clock. I was like yeah, 11:07 PM and then he was like get off. And of course, I told him no then he just shrugged and left me alone.

I have like this dry patch of skin on my stomach. It's so itchy. I don't even know who I effing got it... *hums for a while and looks around the room* okay, the crickets are really getting annoying. My window is currently open (but my mom told me to put it down because she fears a thunderstorm but the weatherman I don't think, said there would be one but he has been wrong before) are chirping, and chirping and CHIRPING. don't they ever go to sleep?

I thought of a question that is totally stupid but it really makes you think. What do sheep count when they can't go to sleep? They can't count themselves. That would be totally ridicolous. It's like us (humans) not going to sleep so we count people. Like celebrities, or our friends or our enemies. So, that should REALLY be answered. I saw it on a avatar sorta thingy. It's very sorta cute. I need to find that.

I can't wait wait wait wait WAIT until high school starts! It's the beginning of an era (in a way) and like it's a stepping stone to a higher level of education, COLLEGE. I can't wait to get out of this city. I HAVE to go to an Indiana college (because my mom told me if I stayed here, then she would let me go anywhere I want to move to after college so fair deal. I'm thinking the Big Bad Apple.) It's going to be so cool. A taste of freedom before you REALLY get to experience it. Ooh, I can't wait.

I'm just mindlessly jumping from subject to subject and really useless conversation starters. "So, what do sheep count when they can't sleep?" Gotta admit, it just makes you think. But I think if you think about that, it just kinda makes you stupid. Okay, well the chips have gone into my stomach and the ice water has evaporated into, my stomach also. Nighty-night. (What? I'm tired. I can only pull all-nighters SOMETIMES.)

Love, Peace and Happiness

I got my schedule for Northrop and I got most of the classes I got. Since I don't want to type all of the gibberish down on here, I'm just gonna type the subjects in order:

Journalism
Keyboarding
Child Development
Intermediate Math
Composition
Physical Ed (torture)
Biology
Creative Writing
English
Sociology
Intro 2d Art

fun classes, eh? I'm gonna call ALL of the people who wrote their numbers down in my yearbook. Well, the people I like. I don't know how to read the schedule even though my sister tried to explain it to me, so that would be SUCH a hassle to try to explain it to them. I'm calling Morgan and Karla first because I promised, but I kinda want them to be online. They're probably off having a great summer while I'm in the house.

Why? Cecilia and Mia are mad at me. Because when I was out with them yesterday, I saw one of my old old old old friends, Madison, (even though she's mad at me because she thought I was doing something with her boyfriend, I forget. It was THAT stupid) I talked to her for a long time and Cecilia and Mia thought I was ignoring them. I was not! I asked them politely if they wanted to join in the convo and they just looked at me annoyed and were like no, we're going home. So then after talking to Madison, I went back to the house and they wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the day (I cut it short) and that was annoying. Whenever I tried to talk to them, they would ignore me or glare at me like they couldn't *believe* I was actually trying to talk to them. Note to self: Never befriend people from your church.

I forgot how twisted our minds were when I was 13. I probably wanted to kill people when they said, "Bless you" when I sneezed. (and I'm not offending any 13-year-olds out there, I'm just ranting) So I just ended up calling my dad to pick me up before I was supposed to go home and that was supposed to be around like 9:30 (because of me going to church really early which is at 7. pyscho!) and I went home around like 9. This all took place like half an hour after I wrote in LJ. God, they have NO sense of timing. They could've invited me to go to the movies yesterday but no, they wait until 7 instead of inviting me at 4 when they were going like sane people.

I really need other people to hang out with besides them. I'm probably going to be online until my dad comes home and God knows when that will be.

OMG, I have been away from LJ so long! I have been hanging at Cecilia's house like for-ever and she's OBSESSED with the Urbz Sims in the City. It's pretty fun, but I would like to go three seconds without punching someone's face in. It's so weird. If you're nice to someone, your reputation goes down, and that is a big NO NO in the Urbz game. My cable's out so there's no enertainment anymore and my brother is always online searching for cheat codes and my sister is online chatting to Leslie about her wedding. ::roll eyes:: boring. My mom might buy a treadmill and my dad is always out at his buddies house so I'm pretty much home alone half of the time. But then I go somewhere. I'm going to Indianapolis with Cecilia next next weekend to visit her grandparents. But we go alone because her parents have to work. Mia can't go because Cecilia's parents don't like her. But they like me, oddly enough. Mia and Cecilia are best friends so that makes Cecilia like 13. And I'm 14 so that makes me her senior. I love being the oldest. I'm watching That 70s Show.

Okay, I am so bored. Cecilia's hanging with Mia and I'm pigging out on cookie dough and chocolate ice cream. ::laughs giddily:: whee, I love being on a sugar high. I am going to go scouting for spoilers.

Write to you later.

P.S. HI ADRIENNE!!!